ROCKLIN - A William Jessup University student has done
something very strange - she has posted an ad on Craigslist, asking to rent a
family for the holiday season.
The ad, written by Jackie Turner, reads, "I am looking
to rent a mom and dad who can give me attention and make me feel like the light
of their life just for a couple of days because I really need it."
To say Turner comes from a broken home would be an
understatement.
"On the outside, it looks like I'm the American dream
kid," the 26-year-old said. "But I have a back story that most people
wouldn't believe if they looked at me today."
Jackie has been physically, sexually and emotionally abused
since she was a child. To escape it she spent years living on the streets,
which in turn created even more problems.
"I was in gang life, on the streets, fighting, doing
drugs, just making a mess of my life," she said.
Turner was eventually arrested for grand theft in Sacramento
County. After spending nearly a year in jail she decided she'd had enough. She
went to a camp for troubled young adults in Grass Valley called Christian
Encounter Ministries.
Now she's a presidential scholar at William Jessup with a
scholarship and a 4.0 grade point average.
But, like she said, that's what you see on the outside.
"There's still something deep inside of me. There's
this void, my biological parents aren't here, and it's kept this hole inside of
me."
That's where the ad comes in, with the headline, "I
want to rent a mom and dad."
She noted she'd be willing be pay $8 an hour.
"Just to sit, just to listen," she said.
"Just to cry with me, no strings beyond that. I've never felt the touch of
my Mom hugging me and holding me. I don't know what it's like to look in my
dad's eyes and feel love instead of hatred."
Dozens of families responded to the ad, all willing to take
her in for free. There also was an entirely different group of people that
contacted her and that she didn't expect to hear from.
"People who have been raped, people who have been
abused, people who have been passed on from foster home to foster home saying
the same things."
Those emails brought more horrible stories. "I had a
pretty horrible upbringing," one said. Another read, "For me it took
half my life to come to terms with my childhood." But with those awful
words there was also validation.
For the first time Jackie isn't alone with her feelings of
abandonment.
"People are afraid to open their mouths and say, 'This
hurts, this sucks'," she said, crying.
"These tears that are here and the things that I feel
right now, this is just a piece of a face that has experienced a lot. People
are out there with the same heart inside of them. Some of them with a greater
drive then mine."
Instead of renting a family, Jackie is now creating one. She
hopes to organize a gathering of those who have responded to her ad.
"When you speak up, people start learning that they're
not by themselves. Often we lock things inside of ourselves, like a lockbox of
our secrets. But then you let one out and realize, 'I'm not by myself after
all, am I?'"
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